we have a mini-crisis brewing here - i fear i have lost my ability to shop! i have been given full permission (by myself mostly) to go out and buy work appropriate clothes - nothing crazy, but you know - a black skirt with pockets, a pair of grey pants, a cute dress, a couple of real tops with shape and structure (that don't need to be ironed). i have literally spent a few hours everyday going through racks, trying on this and that...and nothing is what i am looking for. i spend my working day picking out my favorite PN pieces for other shoppers to wear, and genuinely oooooooh and aaaaaaaaaah when they come out wearing something particularly cute, but when i get into the dressing room myself i feel like, eh, i've seen it before. what is wrong with me?! i have the ability to buy totally cute clothes at 50% off and so far, all i have to show for it is one shirt. oh, and a bunch of shoes. nothing special or particularly cute but i'm trying to keep myself standing so i'm willing to sacrifice.
i think that my issues with shopping have more to do with the fact that I WANT MY STUFF, then anything else. we've been here a little over a month (i know) and we travelled for almost a month before that and this whole time i have done it with one pair of jeans and a whole bunch of tshirts. but it's not just the clothes. i want my pillow. and my stuffed torah. i want to eat off my own dishes (they are so pretty, after all) and i want to be able to light my own candlesticks on shabbat. i want my bright blue party dress so i can decide if i'm wearing it to COR's wedding or if i need to start looking for something new (oh god, more shopping). i want my dansk clogs because maybe they will protect my feet and i want AMAZING kate spade mary janes because i know they won't.
okay. i feel better. it's time for work.
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