i generally talk to my mom on the phone everyday. at least once. ususally more. we email too. in between. this is what normal looks like to me.
my parents are in italy right now and have been for the last week and a half. and so i haven't talked to my mom every day. we've actually only spoken a couple of times and emailed once. and it feels not normal to me. i'm not a fan.
i know that i talk to my mom more than most. i'm not ususally aware of how often we ARE talking but what i've been thinking about, the last few days, is how strange it is to NOT be talking. i feel like something is missing and i don't like it.
my relationship with my mom DRAMATICALLY improved after i moved out of the house. the years of 14-21 (at least) were not the happiest of mother daughter years. i have a difficult time now, remembering what it felt like to be a daughter back then, but i know, from what my mom tells me, it was very trying to be my mother. today i feel bad for how i made her feel during those years. i doubt i could have done things differently, i was an unhappy teenager and after working with many unhappy teens myself i now how stubborn WE can be, but it makes me sad to know i made my mom so sad.
things i love about my mom...today:
she doesn't dye her gorgeous silver/gray hair no matter how many times her friends from LA and westport tell her to
she's in a bookclub, sometimes they read trash, sometimes they read russian classics
she would rather have alone time with my dad then spend it with anyone else (except maybe me)
she calls me when she finds a good deal at dsw
when i come home she makes me a taco salad
she wore two left shoes to my wedding
she's a great mother-in-law to ABN and his sister
she calls me during award shows
she emails me when celebrities do things that i would appreciate in LA
she is obsessed with knowing what is going on with my friends
she likes to cuddle
she still likes to put my cold nose in her eye
she and my dad play one game of bananagrams a night, after dinner
she acknowledges that sometimes she gives The King more credit than he deserves
she saves wedding invitations/xmas cards/high school and camp mailings for me to look at
when i am away she wishes i was near
i've been sort of down the last couple of days and this morning i decided it was partly because i'm missing my mom. i feel a mix of lameness and love...i can't imagine living in the same town as my parents (the thought actually makes me breakout in hives) but i like where we're at right now. i wouldn't want it any other way.
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