i pee a lot more than the average girl. basically at any given moment, i need to pee, and most likely i'm holding it. i don't know why. i don't remember peeing a lot as a child, or feeling the constant need to go way back when. but now...its constant. no matter how much i pee, i always have to pee again.
my need to pee drives ABN nutso. i mean, i hear him, i get how it could cramp someones style. it makes travelling long distances difficult (if i want to make the 2.5 hour drive from boston to westport without stopping i basically have to stop consuming liquid 48 hours beforehand). and my constant bouncing and squirming in hopes of controlling my bladder isn't pretty to watch. but i seriously don't know how to change things...i honestly believe this is just the way i was made.
if i drink a bottle of water, or a diet coke or a coffee (all things i do on a regular basis, like, say during a typical work day) i don't just pee once like everyone else. i pee at least a half-dozen times. its as if once i start i can't stop. i've decided its a condition, i am unable to fully release my bladder. still, i fear that my coworkers might suspect the worst, she can't possibly be peeing that often, she must be doing cocaine (i mean, that's what i would think if it were someone else!).
i fear things most people look forward to - going to the movies, taking a long walk, going to a fancy dinner party - because i worry if i will be able to easily find a place to pee...without missing the fun and causing an interruption.
if this is the state of my bodily functions at 27...what's ahead? what's going to happen when i'm pregnant? i fear more than swollen feet are in my future....
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